Why can't I get my life together?

Okay so I started dating sumone back oct 28 2007...Since then we have had a child (born 5-18-09) and have lived together non stop since July 2009. My family however hates him and ill tell you why we have lived together non stop since then. I got pregnant in Aug 2008 and when I got pregnant my family freaked out and kicked me out. Now at the time when I got kicked out I was working at AT&T making $10.20hr at the age of only 19 years old. I was in training at the time and because I missed one day of training due to the threatened miscarriage AND THEY STILL FIRED ME. After my family kicked me out I went from staying in a shelter with nut cases to a maternity home with even BIGGER NUT CASES. Towards the end of my pregnancy, my family came got me from the maternity shelter and let me move back in. LET ME REMIND U WHEN I FIRST GOT PREGNANT MY FAMILY TOLD ME WE WERE GOING ON A VACTION TO NEW ORLEANS AND WHEN WE GOT THERE THEY BOUGHT ME TO AN ABORTION CLINIC AND I RAN AWAY THE NEXT DAY WHICH IS HOW I ENDED UP IN THE SHELTERS. Anyways once I had my baby my mother said to me "you ought to let you sister adopt that baby" because my sister is an OBGYN and 30" but THESE ARE THE SAME PEOPLE THAT WANTED MY BABY SUCTIONED OUT OF MY STOMACH AND IN A BAG DOWN A DRAIN!!!!! I Told her hell no. After that they kicked me out and wouldnt give me my baby and I have been without her since she was 3 months. DONT GET ME WRONG I TRIED TO GO BACK AND GET MY BABY BUT MY SISTER AND MAMA SAID THAT THE COURTS WOULDNT GIVE HER TO ME BECAUSE I WAS STAYING FROM PLACE TO PLACE AND DIDNT HAVE A SET HOME...I BELIEVED THEM!!! NOW ITS OVER A YEAR LATER AND MY MAMA AND MY SISTER ACT LIKE THEY ARE MY BABYS MOTHERS AND REALLY HAVE SHUNNED ME AWAY FROM HER...IM HURTING...MY HEART IS FEELING SO BAD...AND IM DANG NEAR SUICIDAL....WHAT DO I DO? MY HEART HURTS...IM NOT THE SAME...SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME